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LIFE IS A ONE WAY STREET

no matter how many detours you take, none of them lead back.
so enjoy every moment, because none of them will ever happen the same way again.

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about me
Sunanda Baradwaj
11 September 1992
VJ Choir Soprano
Victoria Junior College 09S39
Cedar Girls' Secondary School Choir
Cedar Girls' Secondary School Magnificent Class of 2008 4O
Marymount Convent School 6B 2004

i love
Music
My family and friends
VJ Choir
Venice 2010
To love
You

i want
To escape this misery

DEAR DIARY

Sunday, April 24, 2011

2:29 PM

Yes, I know, my new blogskin screams 'obssessed'. I thought I'd finally come to terms with my graduation and learnt to accept that life has to go on, that, while I can treasure those precious memories, I can't cling onto them forever, always thinking about the past, neglecting the present and reluctant to face my future.

Yesterday, while I was watching the juniors during SYF workshop, I felt so excited, thinking back on the days leading up to SYF 2009. The excitement, the nerves, the adrenaline. Everything. Running around the parade square early in the morning and doing warmups outside the PT to wake ourselves before singing. Even now, when I think of singing My Love on the VCH stage, I am so overcome with emotion. Sigh.

One year earlier, on this very same Sunday, we were preparing for our performance at VS's Rhapsody and the following Monday we were heading to the airport, ready to embark on our journey to Venice.

Funny and heartbreaking, how time seems to fly by so fast. I can remember everything so clearly as though it were about a month ago but alas, it has been almost a year.

On second thought, I -have- learnt to accept that I have to move on with my life and prepare for my future, but at the same time, I think watching the juniors go through the same experiences as I did evokes a sense of longing to relive the past 2 wonderful years. I think I just have too much time on my hands at the moment and with all the SYF and SOV preperation going on, my mind automatically fills with memories of the SYF and SOVs that I have experienced.

Okay, emotional turmoil aside, I can't wait for shopping tomorrow with Giam and dinner on Thursday with the roomies! Oh and lunch+mani with Sze Hui on Monday! Of course, I'm looking forward to SYF and SOV as well! ^^ Although I still have to study for my SATs which can be quite annoying sometimes but I guess it is one way to keep my brain active while I'm enjoying my free time before university starts.

Speaking of which, I've only heard from NTU so far-I have been accepted into Biological Sciences-and even so, I still cannot access the online Joint Acceptance Portal hmm...I can only hope that it is because NUS might be considering me for DA for Law. Whatever the case, I'm confident that whatever I get is for the best. Hopefully it'll be either of my first 2 choices in NUS (:

I guess I'll just wait patiently, unlike my parents, and see how things go from here. Meanwhile, I have some serious chionging to do for SATs and some very fun outings with friends and of course, I can finally sing in a choir again since I signed up for In Song '11 with Giam and Dria. Life doesn't seem too bad at the moment.