DEAR DIARY
9:19 PM
...birds singing in the sycamore tree
dream a little dream of me...
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gah.
that song has been running through my head the past few days and i cant seem to get it out and the worst thing is, i have a splitting headache that refuses to go away.
but i guess its not too bad cause i'm done with everything in bio and maths except organelles and freaking vectors. imma have to borrow someone's cue cards for a day, cause i can't find mine :\ and every morning imma do 1hr worth of vectors and combined questions to practise. time to chiong chem and econs :\
it was fun catching up with serene and bridget today through sms haha (: missed talking to them for so long. we all end CTs/mid years/whatever-you-want-to-call them on the 1st of july, so we're planning to hang out the day after! something to look forward to after those darned papers :D
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just hold me tight and tell me you'll miss me...
i've been waiting for a long time now for you to tell me that. or anything really. you don't know how hard it is trying to wait patiently for you to respond. i'm not asking for a 3-paged letter or the likes. just a simple hey, and how things are going for you. is it really that hard?
you can't just say something like that and take off. do you even realise how selfish you're being? and if you're just plain embarassed about everything, i'd rather you tell it to my face, than to tell everyone BUT me. thanks SO MUCH for respecting the friendship we've had the past 18 freaking years.
that being said i hope you know that now that you've let this happen, my opinion of you has completely changed. and i'm talking a 180. i'm not sure if i feel the same anymore, but i know i've formed my new opinion, and its not a very nice picture.
i don't have anything much left to say. whatever decision you make is fine by me. but just so you know, there's no turning back. if you chose to ignore everything, i'll just stand there watching everything crumble, if that's what you really want.
it was nice knowing you.
♥nan